Wednesday, January 17, 2007
Gone
He left her in the summer - after sharing a home, traveling with her cross-country, taking her to meet his mother, asking my father-in-law for her hand in marriage - after all this, he simply left. Started pulling back into himself, piece by piece, slowly until Sil was forced to ask the uncomfortable and the obvious, what's left?

At first, I was worried. Afraid she'd revert to her hardened self, afraid he'd damaged her, nervous that the new, soft Sil that I'd come to appreciate and love would be lost again beneath a layer of anger and disappointment and hurt.

But the world didn't collapse and she did manage to survive, somehow intact - allowing herself the time to be wounded and healed.

And then he called.

Days ago, he called and then arrived at her doorstep with a three-beer glow, asking to come in and talk. Which led to cuddling, which led...to her - open again to the possibility of him. Of them. Of a Spring wedding and a romantic honeymoon. Of saying goodmorning over coffee in their breakfast nook or falling asleep together on the couch. Open to the possibility of life lived with him. Again.

But, like some horrible cliche, he left her with little more than a thin promise to call that turned into her checking her phone, hoping that she wasn't taken advantage of.

But she was.

And I'm baffled. I guess this is where my naivete comes in, but I'm just in awe that people can be so callous and detatched and hurtful - that this cliche scenario is real.


4 Comments:

Blogger zhoen said...

Ah, yes, those who want to be seen as romantic and have everyone around them adore them. Want to revel in their own power, without actually investing themselves.

Blogger dillyweed said...

So sad. Poor girl. What a lousy guy. And I hope she doesn't let him do that again. How is she today?

Blogger Novice said...

I had to remind myself that this wasn't your fiction. I wish it was. It is not your naivete, Mella, it's your goodness.

Blogger Mella said...

Thanks everyone. She's been kept busy with work, and therefore a bit distracted. She has resolved to ignore any future phone calls or text messages from him - to protect herself. I just hope she's able to do it. It's so hard to stop wanting to believe that the person you love, loves you.

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